I thought about you today and my heart ached. I thought about all of the tears I cried on the way to you. I’ve been waiting for the day you would be within reach since I was a little girl. I hurt myself settling for cheap imitations of you. I thought that some of you was better than none of you so I took whatever I could get. I didn’t realize by settling I was training my heart to survive with less than it deserved. Each day I quarreled with the part of me that still wanted more of you. I thought that creating my own happy ending would have to start with having a less than perfect present. I was satisfied chasing an artificial love.
It all looks so easy in the fairy tales.
Two people look beyond one another’s shortcomings and fall in love. Now that I’m older I no longer want someone who can look beyond my flaws. I don’t want to spend a lifetime pretending they don’t exist. My imperfections are as much a part of me as the beautiful things. I just pray you’re brave enough to see beauty in my struggle.
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